I know it\’s been too long I haven\’t wrote anything here to put a post about just one fucked up day now, but that\’s how it goes. Probably I am too unti-social person and it looks like writing posts in my blog is not something I like doing. Anyway.
Just to give a short summary of what happened since last post: I changed my job, I spent 2 months in Russia waiting for the bloody passport to be renewed. I moved to new apartments. I\’ve seen many things. A lot of thing changed around me and so on and so forth.
For today, I have a dual feeling which just drives me crazy. From one side everything is good and is facing right direction on the lane of progress, but on the other side – everything is somehow fucked up. Moreover it is too much of all of these around and I can\’t do anything with it. Have strange and fucked up feelings inside of me and don\’t know how to fight them.
Please don\’t ask what exactly is going wrong since I don\’t know it myself, as well as don\’t give me any advice since this only confuses me even further. I wrote this post just to drop out some of the feelings and probably feel better, though I still doubt this will help me in any way (